why do I want to write a big post for life

Life has many things in it, it is impossible to bear the mistakes, after many things happened I suddenly realized that everything is light and my future opens up to new knowledge, I live like a closed door and the mistakes of life, sometimes I am lost and suddenly realize that the mistakes that have been made cannot be recovered, sometimes I look up at the starry night sky, as if seeing the stars as if sending signals as if about to foretell something, I try very hard, there are nights when I look up at the sky as if seeing a miracle of God arranging the stars, but I call God, God does not answer, I wonder if that day is teaching me how to arrange the stars to change the fate of life, why does it sound so absurd but it all comes from absurdity, why do I want to write a big post for life.                                                   "The right things always come from the wrong things."                                                                       "All life comes from the stench of the universe." "A great man never rests his chin on his hand." "A great man is never a great man."                        "A beggar always hides his incompetence."         "A talented man hates being called stupid."        "A quiet space is not violated."                                 "A talented man always waits for the opportunity to lock up the stupid, to capture."      "The talented always wake up early, the ones who wait for the right time often sleep late." "Great men never become gods."                             "If you are a god, God will bless you."